I Needed To Change My Life
Have you ever wondered why…
- Despite numerous breakthroughs, you are still suffering the same day to day issues?
- Therapy has never really worked in the way that you had hoped for?
- No matter how many teachers you see or spiritual books you read you still don’t “get it”?
- Enlightenment seems to get more confusing the more you learn of it?
- The more you “know” the less you actually understand?
- Meditation still seems like a chore?
- Spiritual practices still leave you feeling empty and alone?
- You have been “almost there” for way too long?
Hello, my name is Kirsten, and if you have answered ‘yes’ to any of these questions, then chances are we have a lot in common. In the life I used to lead, I experienced a lot of confusion, frustration, disappointment, and emotional suffering. I knew I needed to change my life, but I didn’t know how to identify what is truly real.
Even as a child I felt separate to others; different and mostly alone. Even though I had plenty of friends there was always something missing; a gap I tried to fill with activity, food, and trying to please others. Nothing worked.
Eventually, sometime late in my thirties I also gave up on therapy, spiritual books, religion, new ageism, and workshops after each failed to deliver what I was looking for. This thing I sought continued not to have a name for a long time.
Clearer of the Search
After a prolonged, arid time, I read “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle and began to seek my Heart. I’m not sure if I even called it that at the time, but I had a clearer idea of what it was I was looking for.
Then, something extraordinary happened. I discovered a way to ground myself completely in the moment, overcoming the relentless distractions of the mind and awakened to the intuitive awareness of unity, which resides in the inner silence of our being. The hidden joy and beauty, in the life that I already am, was begun to be recognised and lived. Absolutely nothing has been the same way since.
What I discovered is not difficult or unobtainable, nor is it something that takes years of practice. Also, it’s not anything I found in a spiritual book. (Have you ever read something important in a book, only to find you couldn’t really put that spiritual teaching into practice in your everyday life? Well, that was true of me, too. This is why I believe this teaching to be so important.)
Self Realised Teacher of Enlightenment
What I discovered was an actual living, breathing human being who had been spontaneously given this teaching upon his awakening in 1992. His name is Elysha, he is a self realised teacher of enlightenment, and he lived in New Zealand (although he has now moved to the UK). He teaches a method for grounding yourself completely into the present moment, opening your heart, realising your true nature, and fulfilling your potential for liberation.
Sound good? It is!
Although I knew what I was looking for was not to be found in anyone else, I intuitively felt that Elysha embodied this more than anyone I had ever met. I knew life would never be the same and it wasn’t. I have been with him and the group that formed around him, ever since.
Throughout this early time of living in supportive community with Elysha, Julie, and the others, I found Elysha’s writings, talks, and meditations inspiring and helpful in staying attentive to the present moment. This community was an alliance of the heart. Elysha’s teaching of the time led to all those in the group going through profound changes. I saw these unfoldings occurring in those in the group and gradually also noticed the falling away of things in myself.
I realize now that in the beginning of this time I somehow expected that my life would change in very tangible and fantastic ways. In some ways this is true, but mostly I have found this change to be very ordinary.
Awakenings
There were no “awakenings” in the usual sense, rather there were huge gradual shifts in perception, and in our lives.
In Julie, this resulted in the total falling away of self – not just ego but the entire point of self-reference. Since this time Julie guided the group with her exquisite clarity and we have all continued to deepen into our hearts, letting go of more and more.
For myself, life has become wonderfully simple, unfolding beautifully and easefully, even when the appearances would look to others to be difficult. There is less and less fight and drama in life and more simple acceptance of all, just as it is. Along with this there is a contented gratitude for life as it is.
There is no longer a search for something outside or inside of me. My heart is right here, ever and always. Life is a flow of simplicity and all of life naturally points to the heart.
Although from the outside it might look the same as any other to an onlooker, life is now very simple, pleasurable, and immensely full. Although life still has its ups and downs I am no longer involved or invested in these. Life simply is. Life is extraordinarily ordinary now.
If you are intent on awakening to your true nature I would highly recommend using the spiritual books, audios, and free resources offered on the website. These will assist you to stay on track, just as they did us. They are simple, succinct, and clear. I have never found anything that calls you back to your true nature as often as Julie and Elysha do in their books and audios.
I will always be grateful to Elysha and Julie for their patience and determination to walk what they talked, and also to all who have walked with us in the heart.
With love,
Kirsten
