I found your website by using a Google search on “giving up all faith/belief.” I drank in your message, bought all the books and devoured them, listened to the YouTube messages, and purchased your meditation mp3s. It is what I have hungered for… so simple… so astonishing. Thank you.
I am listening to the meditation mp3 twice a day and also using Julie’s meditation technique. I find I am relaxing into myself… something I have never really done. I work on a moment by moment basis… failing and remembering all the time.
I am recovering from a spiritual teacher that proved to be mischievous. He pushed me so hard to awaken for all the wrong reasons and used all the wrong methods (my perception). I studied for over 20 years and just didn’t get it. I thought I found the right teacher… all the right words, philosophy, methods… but when I questioned his ways…. a heated exchange occurred. Two days before I found your website, I realized that his teaching was only of the mind, our minds were battling each other, and I was getting nowhere.
The realization that hit me was so obvious… so enlightening… incredible. I realized it was not my true self that was fighting, but the self interpreted by the mind. A lightening bolt hit my head and pierced my heart… deep into my soul. I continue to feel the sear of that lightening bolt. I am beginning to live it… always what I sought… just didn’t realize it was right where I stand. It was an incredible experience to be instructed by a false teacher…but I learned so much. I am eternally grateful, and grateful that I found your message.
So now, I am finding the natural me within me… the mind continues to distract… I fail many times to acknowledge it… yet I feel I own it now. What a great realization… I am eternally grateful for my teacher… although he didn’t intend this… it happened… it is mine to feel… enjoy… live… and continue to feel and use in everyday living.
It feels so comforting to be home and just being my self.